Overture Magazine 2013-2014 March-April 2014 | Page 42

{ Program Notes and classical idioms if these were the symphonies you were accustomed to. For in what was probably the most remarkable and daring first symphony ever written (only Berlioz’s Symphonie fantastique can match its shock value), Mahler revealed himself as fully and radically himself. Strangely, Mahler had expected an easy success. As he later told his friend Natalie Bauer-Lechner: “Naively, I imagined it would be child’s play for performers and listeners, and would have such immediate appeal that I should be able to live on the profits and go on composing.” Yet he was also fully aware of the originality of his artistic vision. Of his first two symphonies he wrote: “My whole life is contained in them: I have set down in them my experience and suffering … to anyone who knows how to listen, my whole life will become clear, for my creative works and my existence are so closely interwoven that, if my life flowed as peacefully as a stream through a meadow, I believe I would no longer be able to compose anything.” When Mahler was composing this work, he would have dearly loved to have been able “to live on the profits,” for he was leading a rather precarious existence. There were no summers off or peaceful cottages deep in the woods for him then, and any composing he accomplished had to be done in odd hours, often late at night. He jumped rapidly from one opera house to another, as assistant and eventually conductor