OMG Digital Magazine OMG Issue 269 27th July 2017 | Page 5

OMG Digital Magazine | 269 | Thursday 27 July 2017 • PAGE 5
Confessions
I've never seen
Game Of Thrones
I have HBO, I've seen and heard about it on social media, but I've never even watched a
10-second clip of it. Not a clue about the plot or anything. I feel like an alien.
Because of my terrible past of being
used and abused by my own family,
I never felt love or loved by anyone.
I'm terrified when someone says they
love me because I'm constantly on
edge, just in case it's yet another cruel
trick or joke.
I've
never
felt
truly
loved
At the same time, I still tell people I do,
just so they don't feel like their efforts
are in vain. And I want to trust them
so badly, I want to be loved so badly,
but I just can't let go of the past.
No joy
I never wake up or go
to bed feeling happy or
excited anymore. It has
been years I think.
Haven't told
my parents.
I found out that I have stage 3 colon cancer on Christmas Eve last year. I
had gotten so sick that I went to the hospital. They ran dreadful tests on
me and sure enough, it was cancer. I haven't told my parents, and hav-
en't had any treatment yet.  
Reflecting back to how
I felt as a child; waking
on a Saturday saddens
me as an adult since I
forgot how good it felt to
jump out of bed looking
forward to the day.
Now I go to bed and feel
sad, depressed, or lonely.
Sleeping next to my wife
that snores every night
and who I lost all physical
attraction for doesn't
help. I hope my children
never experience this.