Nursing Review Issue 1 | Jan-Feb 2018 | Page 17

specialty focus about internally displaced people or civilian casualties of war. The news failed to paint me an image of the suffering that people here are enduring. Still, perhaps it is something you can never really grasp until you face it for yourself. While trauma cases are an everyday reality in Tal Abyad Hospital, the misery that lines the faces of these kind, generous and usually happy people isn’t confined to the horrific consequences of bullets and mine explosions. For the people who have fled from immediate danger, their concerns are now where to sleep, what to eat and how to simply survive another day. Sometimes they have lost limbs and loved ones, and they have nothing but the clothes on their back, and yet they are grateful. They tell me they are the lucky ones, because they are alive. The bad days here are filled with unimaginable waves of patients with devastating injuries and sickness. A good day here sees a child brought in to us who still has a living parent by their side to soothe them, and the shrapnel that has littered their tiny body hasn’t caused any major internal bleeding. Or a patient we refer survives the three-hour ‘ambulance’ ride without oxygen to a facility that may or may not have an ICU bed available. A good day sees a shepherd boy miraculously survive after having both his arms blown off. A big difference compared to my good days at work in Australia. I never expected to be in northern Syria, but this is where I find myself. MSF has enabled me to do what I can for people facing terrible circumstances every day. Sometimes it doesn’t feel like it’s enough, but we persist. We have a huge team here working week-long around the clock. Some days are beyond exhausting. We share in our sadness on the tough days, but we also share in the successes and happy moments: watching families reunite, seeing patients survive devastating traumas and moving on to the next stage of their recovery. Now that the offensive for Raqqa is finished, people are slowly returning to piles of rubble they once knew as home – but booby traps, incendiary devices and explosive remnants of war await them. Here at the hospital, we stand ready to respond and offer any words of comfort that we can. Allah yerhamu… ■ Jessica Vanderwal is an Australian registered nurse on her first field assignment with Médecins Sans Frontières. MSF teams assess the medical and humanitarian needs in northern Syria. Children assist their parents in the clean-up east of Raqqa city. Houses in Raqqa remain abandoned after being scorched and reduced to rubble. nursingreview.com.au | 15