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HEALTH & WELLNESS Meaning in the mourning Every article I write is an attempt to mirror what officers throughout the state of New Jersey are experiencing at this moment in time. Of course, my view is skewed, as my work at Cop 2 Cop is focused on crisis intervention, so we often see officers in their most vulnerable or desperate moments. CHERIE CASTELLANO In the last few weeks, it seems our law enforceCOP 2 COP ment community has seen a significant number of losses from suicides, medical illness and accidents, but the common denominator is a coming together of the brotherhood sharing its suffering and remembering lives of service. Yet the equation still results in a lot of loss. Elisabeth Kübler-Ross’ 1969 book On Death and Dying contains a commonly shared concept that grief and loss involve stages and a process. This got me thinking about the fact that officers face life and loss more frequently than in the civilian world, so how can you transform it into something that can enhance your life and resilience? In a recent article by Janelle Breese Biagioni, the author examines the unique grief of police, military and first responders, and highlights the question “why” in your everyday loss. She explains that in searching for an answer, an officer may find meaning in the mourning. In my work at Cop 2 Cop, it seems that the meaning of loss is rarely clear quickly, and even when it seems apparent, the threat of a loss of hope accompanies the loss of too many lives. Breese Biagioni explains that first responders can help each other through the following insights while grieving: • Short and long term support are needed. • Don’t expect people to get over it on your timetable. • Use the name of the deceased when you can. • It is not taboo. • Allow for crying, anger and emotions – tears release sorrow. • Don’t try to fix anything. • Take care of yourself while helping those most affected. • Recognize that your workplace may be a good place for conversations about loss with other officers or supervisors, as trauma can be a bond of sorts and normalize the experience for everyone. “Grief doesn’t change you. It reveals you.” JOHN GREEN Resilience still seems like a trendy word that is overused in self-help books, especially when it comes to real life and real loss. I see your resilience in the courageous moments when you do a death notification, hold the flag as an honor guard member, and perform the roll call where you address the shift about a tragedy. Eventually something transformative often occurs among officers that is actually positive: It is a break in the tension, a joke that only officers can laugh at, a moment of silence, or an act of kindness that unites you. It is a phenomenon that is resilience personified, and I want you to focus on this in these challenging times. “There but for the grace of God go I,” is my mantra when I am grateful during a response for loss in our police lives. Somehow life does seem more precious in the face of someone else’s mortality. So how do you move from the sadness of loss into strength? It seems that your humor, faith, sense of service, and brotherhood offset the death and loss and suffering that sometimes surrounds you. You are lucky to be alive, to be loved, to be able to work, to be called to service through law enforcement, to see the moments in life that change others, to read this article, to be resilient. In the book, now a movie, The Fault in Our Stars, author John Green sums it up: “Grief doesn’t change you. It reveals you.” Thanks for the glimpse of who you truly are through the moments at Cop 2 Cop. Call if you need us: 866-267-2267. d www.njcopsmagazine.com ■ APRIL 2015 77