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11TH ANNUAL Out of the DARKNESS Walk Step by Step The Middlesex County Corrections Local 152 Honor Guard leads walkers in the first lap Survivors and PBA members walk to raise suicide awareness n BY JENNIFER TRATTLER As Hurricane Joaquin threatened to inundate much of New Jersey with rainfall or worse during the first week of October, many wondered whether the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention would cancel its 11th Annual Out of Darkness Walk. Yet on Oct. 4, the storm rolled out to sea letting the skies open up with sunshine to light up a day many predicted would be filled with “darkness” – not just meteorological, but emotional as well. Unwaveringly, hundreds gathered at Buccleuch Park in New Brunswick to walk for family members and friends lost to suicide; not to mourn, but to raise awareness through a celebration of life and light. And just like that, the weight of such devastating loss – like the threat of the storm – started to recede, even just for the day. By the end of the Walk, new friends – united by shared tragedy – joined the conversation that is working to prevent further suicides in law enforcement, and began the process of coping through the realization that they didn’t walk alone. A Walk to Remember Past the finish line, with three 1.2-mile laps behind them, Rachel Zubrzycki and Renee Lyons finally found each other and shared a long embrace. Retired Middlesex County Corrections Local 152 member Lyons walked for her husband, Larry, a fellow Middlesex County Corrections Officer lost to suicide on April 29, 2014. Zubrzycki walked for her husband, Ed, who passed on May 7 after serving the Burlington County Prosecutor’s Office Local 320 for 19 years. It was Lyons’ second walk and Zubrzycki’s first. “It’s still hard to deal with this everyday,” confessed Lyons. “I never thought after being married for 30 years my husband would have committed suicide. It’s good to see support from family and friends (at the Walk) and you meet new people every year. It’s a sad occasion but you’re uplifting somebody new who’s going through what I went through last year.” For survivors, meeting new people is a double-edged sword. The rise in attendance can be contributed to organizations like the NJ State PBA and Cop 2 Cop that continuously work to elevate suicide awareness, but it also serves as evidence that law enforcement officers are taking their own lives. In the past year, 13 New Jersey law enforcement officers have died by suicide; proof that the law enforcement community isn’t an exception to this kind of tragedy. Zubrzycki attended the event with family, friends and members of Local 320, but spent most of her day walking with Nicole McClintock, the widow of T.J. McClintock who was a member of Cherry Hill Local 176 for eight years before passing on July 8, 2009. CONTINUED ON PAGE 54 www.njcopsmagazine.com n OCTOBER 2015 53