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year’s most compelling film. The act of terrorism Toller plans will take human lives, but also destroy his church if executed correctly, and it’s this element that makes me wonder if Schrad- er’s film is a confessional about the doubt and despair that af- flicts every writer. With less than a handful of parishioners at- tending his church each Sunday, will Toller and his little church be missed? Through the figure of Mary (I’m no theologian, but I’m pretty sure Schrader didn’t pick that name out of a hat), Schrader makes it clear that at least one person will miss Toller. As a writer, knowing you have an audience is what keeps you from chucking your laptop out the window, and as First Re- formed ultimately displays, if one person might miss your words, it’s worth continuing to write them. The contemporary audi- ence for Schrader’s work may be a fraction of that of his ‘70s prime, but his words still affect us, perhaps now more than ever. As long as he keeps penning ser- mons, we’ll keep listening. w First Reformed 4 ½ stars out of 5 Directed by: Paul Schrader NJ STAGE - ISSUE 46 Starring: Amanda Seyfried, Ethan Hawke, Cedrick Kyles Michael Gaston INDEX NEXT ARTICLE 34