New Church Life Jan/Feb 2014 | Page 93

  selflessness The great paradox of human existence is that we do not exist. That is, we have no existence of our own because we have no being of our own. There’s nothing in us to exist, except what is from the Lord with us. (Human evil is nothing in itself, but only a distortion of good – although its effects are real enough.) “I AM,” the Lord said to Moses at the burning bush. (Exodus 3:20) It’s the meaning of “Jehovah.” That name contains within it the profound truth that everything that exists comes from God: all life, all being, all substance, all humanity. “We are because God is.” (Divine Providence 46e) The angels have an even greater sense of possessing life in themselves than we do, and yet, at the same time, the greatest perception that they do not, that they live every moment from the Lord. They know that the cosmic rule repeated several times in the Writings – that “subsistence is perpetual creation” – applies to them. Which is why they are always young, and their world is always new. “Behold, I make all things new.” (Revelation 21:5) The mystic idea is that our own personality and sense of selfhood must be annihilated if we are to merge with the Divine. And it’s true that our natural self, our imaginary self, must die. But the truth is that the closer we are conjoined with the Lord, the greater will be our feeling of having life in ourselves. Our unique personality will not be d