Naleighna Kai's Literary Cafe Magazine NK Literary Cafe Magazine - April 2018 Issue | Page 68

Guilt
On March 19, I struggled with an extreme
amount of guilt. I had found out the night before
the uncle who molested me had also been accused
and in court over a case over a foster child he had
raped while under his roof. She, at 18, was killed in
a car accident.
All I could think about is if I had said something
sooner ... All I could think is of the burden she,
a teenager, carried. All I can think is that no one
believed her. I would have believed her. She didn’t
have me to turn to because I cut that part of my
family off for my own sanity and safety.
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The person who shared it with me also said that my
aunt was well aware of what had been going on and
keeps his secrets. That also means she was aware of what
happened to me. She knew about what happened to the
other girls. Girls. She knew. And she consistently invited
his nieces over to their home to provide the outlets to
keep him satiated.
I was sad on so many levels that it was hard to function
the next day without crying at different points of the day.
I shared my thoughts and experience on Face Book
and requested prayers. Through every single one of
the comments on my post this morning and felt every