Naleighna Kai's Literary Cafe Magazine May - Mother's Day Issue | Page 46

Blessing
in Disguise
by Naleighna Kai
First, I’m going to be honest. I never
wanted children. Considering what I
had been through early in life, I didn’t
think there was a maternal bone in
my body. So what happened to me at
age eighteen? Right at the point I was
about to put a “for sale” sign on one
thigh and an “open for business” sign
on the other and would be serving “it”
up like it was on the menu of Mel’s
Diner? You guessed it, that star in the
east floated by; along with Three Wise
Men (or was it Three Blind Mice?).
In either case, I was now expecting
the one thing I didn’t believe I
could handle. How was I going to
raise a child without infecting it
with the aftermath of my traumatic
experiences? Why would The Creator
do such a thing? Were they passing the
peace pipe up there in Heaven? Maybe
someone had three pulls too many. It’s
supposed to be puff, puff, pass people
to keep things in rotation. At least that’s
what they said on the movie “Friday”.
At 18, in college studying to become a
computer programmer, I wasn’t ready to
be a mother. Not that I did everything I
could to get pregnant, but me, and the
guy I was dating who was nearly eight
years older, weren’t diligent in doing
the things for me not to get pregnant.
Why on earth would the Creator put this
on me when the violent circumstances
surrounding my birth and the things I
went through growing up didn’t make me