To Table of Contents is a little heavier . I am finding it a bit harder , so we stick to easier things . Jimmy loves show rides , and even though he can ' t see what is going on when I ' m with him , and he feels safe , he will laugh and laugh with anything that ' s fast or exciting . We fill our days with songs and lots of encouragement , and it ' s what makes everything fun .
If you haven ' t had the chance to meet Jimmy then you are truly missing out , he will change the way you look at life and you won ' t see it but you will most definitely feel it .
Jimmy is a beautiful soul . He goes to bed laughing , and he wakes a laughing . Some days if I am not feeling the best , I ' ll look at him , and he will be sitting there singing away or laughing . We laugh a lot in our home , which brings so much happiness . To be honest , sometimes I ask myself how can I be sad when I see Jimmy , my son who has never seen colours , clouds or rainbows and he is just sitting with a smile all the time . He gets excited when he hears my friends or his carers voices and gets up to give them big hugs . He has changed my life and made me realise that you don ' t need everything in this world to be happy because when you are laughing , smiling or giggling , all you need is love .
We are all unique , and that is what makes us beautiful and that is enough .
I am now truly happy with my life I wake up every day knowing I am who I am and that is my best possible version of myself ." I say this
because I was 17 when I had Jimmy , and the day I found out about him being blind was the day I felt my heart break . The first few years of his life , I was trying my best but also , I was a bit of a mess . I was drinking out with friends a lot , and every time I would cry . I would say stuff like , why me , what did I do wrong . Though I loved Jimmy , I never wanted to feel that way , but I did and as hard as it is to admit that , I know now that was the truth . I was hurting , and it took a long time to overcome those feelings .
We all have traumas that we need to sit with and try to overcome ; mine stem from a very young age right through to when Jimmy was born and being a young mum . It hasn ' t been easy , and I ' ve been a terrible person at different times in my life , but I have always managed to push through everything and ask myself why have I have done that or been like this .
I have forgiven myself for feeling like I wasn ' t good enough and that I wasn ' t doing my best even though I was at that time . I wake up knowing that Jimmy is happy , so I must have done something right .
Today and every day I choose me , I choose a life that I want to live and give Jimmy because we both deserve everything . I go to work knowing I have a job that I love . Jimmy goes to care with carers who love him like family . I have friends that support us . I can be alone without feeling lonely . All of these feelings come from love ; when anything bad happens , I don ' t focus on the bad I ask myself what can this teach me , what today ' s lesson is , how can I change so this doesn ' t happen again . Life is perfect exactly as it is , the good , the bad and even the ugly because that ' s what will help you grow . It is when we grow we start to heal .
Society ' s misconceptions about children with special needs : I think
people put disabled children / adults in a box and assume that they don ' t know what is going on . Even though I use the word disability , I don ' t like it . Because I believe we all have an ability in one way or another . Jimmy is who he is , and from a young age , doctors have said " he needs to be this or that " because he doesn ' t fit in this