the ‘Chandrasekhar Limit’, a discovery made while he was
a graduate student at Cambridge in the 1930s. If his work
had been recognized then, it could have led to the
discovery of the Black Hole decades earlier. How many
failures must von Braun have gone through before his
Saturn launch vehicle put man on the moon? These
thoughts helped to give me the ability to withstand
apparently irreversible setbacks.
Early in November 1979, Dr Brahm Prakash retired. He
had always been my sheet-anchor in the turbulent waters of
VSSC. His belief in team spirit had inspired the
management pattern for the SLV project, which later
became a blueprint for all scientific projects in the country.
Dr Brahm Prakash was a very wise counsellor who gave
me valuable guidance whenever I deviated from my
mission objectives.
Dr Brahm Prakash not only reinforced the traits which I
had acquired from Prof. Sarabhai, but also helped me give
them new dimensions. He always cautioned me against
haste. “Big scientific projects are like mountains, which
should be climbed with as little effort as possible and
without urgency. The reality of your own nature should
determine your speed. If you become restless, speed up. If
you become tense and highstrung, slow down. You should
climb the mountain in a state of equilibrium. When each
task of your project is not just a means to an end but a
unique event in itself, then you are doing it well,” he would
tell me. The echo of Dr Brahm Prakash’s advice could be
heard in Emerson’s poem on Brahma:
If the red slayer think he slays,
Or, if the slain think he is slain,
They know not well, the subtle ways
I keep, and pass, and turn again.
To live only for some unknown future is superficial. It is
like climbing a mountain to reach the peak without
experiencing its sides. The sides of the mountain sustain
life, not the peak. This is where things grow, experience is
gained, and technologies are mastered. The importance of
the peak lies only in the fact that it defines the sides. So I
went on towards the top, but always experiencing the sides.
I had a long way to go but I was in no hurry. I went in little
steps—just one step after another—but each step towards
the top.
At every stage, the SLV-3 team was blessed with some
extraordinarily courageous people. Along with Sudhakar
and Sivaramakrishnan, there was also Sivakaminathan. He
was entrusted with bringing the C-Band transponder from
Trivandrum to SHAR for integration with the SLV-3. The
transponder is a device fitted with the rocket system to give
the radar signals which are powerful enough to help it track
the vehicle from the take-off site to the final impact point.
The SLV-3 launch schedule was dependent on the arrival
and integration of this equipment. On landing at the Madras
airport, the aircraft which Sivakami was travelling in
skidded and overshot the runway. Dense smoke engulfed
the aircraft. Everyone jumped out of the aircraft through
emergency exits, and desperately fought to save
themselves—all except Sivakami, who stayed in the aircraft
till he removed the transponder from his baggage. He was
among the last few persons, the others being mostly aircraft
crew, to emerge from the smoke and he was hugging the
transponder close to his chest.
Another incident from those days that I recall clearly
relates to Prof. Dhawan’s visit to the SLV-3 assembly
building. Prof. Dhawan, Madhavan Nair and I were