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Up Front Rebecca Johnson feels lucky. Her cancer was caught early. What she didn’t know, however, was how hard it would be to get comfortable with her reconstructed breast. L ast year, a man in Australia came across a round, rubbery object on the beach, about the size of a small tortilla. In a panic, he scooped it up into a plastic bag and hurried to the local police station, convinced a wom- an had been mutilated by a maniac who had prized her breast implant out of her body. The police had a good laugh when they saw the object. It was a jelly fish. That’s what I have implanted on the right side of my body—a silicone disc that’s a dead ringer for a jellyfish. I discovered I had breast cancer the way a lot of women do—a routine mammogram revealed a lump in the right breast. One out of every eight women in America will develop breast cancer at one point in her life, but for some reason, when the nurse came into to the waiting room to call “Ms. 42 VOGUE JUNE 2017 Johnson” back for a consultation, I just assumed it was some- one else. In my defense, Johnson is a common name. The radiologist described the suspicious mass as pea-size and recommended a biopsy. I asked if I could see it. She turned the computer screen my way and there it was, a distinct circle suspended in a ghostly web of white, like the egg sac in a spiderweb. “Is it cancer?” I asked. The doctor turned the screen back to herself. I have noticed this about doctors— none of them wants to be the bearer of bad news. If they can pass the buck, they will, and really, who can blame them? What kind of life is it, telling people they’re U P F R O N T> 4 6 SHAPE-SHIFTER FOCUSED ON THEIR PATIENTS’ SURVIVAL, DOCTORS RARELY PREPARE THEM FOR THE JARRING SENSATION OF LIVING WITH A PROSTHETIC BODY PART. BLUE NUDE, 2000, BY TOM WESSELMANN. VOGUE.COM ERCEN A STRANGER in My House