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Rap/Hip-Hop

Year: 2004

Words Fail Me

Written by: Rachel Kann

Glossed by: Sean Linen

Is it any wonder when words fail me? I’m just trying

to say something undeniable.

They’ve been coming at me talking about

Counting coins and marketing strategies

And packaging and I’m like

Alright (alright) But in the meantime

I’ve been packing spiritual heaps

Smuggling secrets under my coat in the trenches

Infiltrating homes of so called knowledge

Attempting to eradicate the societally imposed

Literary laryngitis.

To give voice to the voiceless

Presenting choices to exploited

Underage angels, begging them to

Break their own chains because

Only they [can] do it.

To make joyous rage and commit to the page.

And I pray, a lot

And I get angry sometimes.

Knowing full well they could get expelled

Or even arrested for said expression

In this powder keg post-Columbine¹ and 9/11²

Life they lead, literally (literally)

Don’t believe me?

(Check the L.A. Times front page)

June 18th, 2003³

So, while they’re busy quoting scriptures

From the good books of touring and distribution

I’m like, cool but in the meantime (uh)

I’m trying to figure out if there’s anything I can

Do for these sacrificial lambs being lead to the

Slaughter, the, sons and daughters of this land

Of Exhaustion.

Is it any wonder when words fail me?

Y’know what? My masters must’ve been

Earned in the art of subversion.

I slip my contraband passion in the Subtext of my own lines, subliminal Messages like, you are beautiful and, you

Have been imprisoned

Fuck the silence or they fastened on your Mind, saw that intellectual shotgun and Set it off.

See this is more than a novelty for me.

Its more than a vehicle for my Personality. This is my life preserver and

and I gladly toss it out to any sweet soul

That’s drowning, repression is Unacceptable.

Expression

is the release

On the pressure valve hearts of these Pressure jars of innocence, fear, and Panic, and anticipation, and I’m not

Trying to canonize myself or make a Martyr out of a molehill.

I do this because it saves me.

I have a harder time getting from A to B

Let alone Z in this world of hypocrisy Than you can imagine.

Afraid simultaneously to and to not place

My soul on the chopping block to hack Off my slice

of the pie while trying to get by financially and

maintain some form of integrity.

But I’m not going eat my own heart out just to get left empty handed.

Is it any wonder when words fail me?

Is it any wonder when words fail me?

This is more than a hobby for me, it’s More than

1)An infamous school shooting of 1999 where two students killed 13 people, injured 20, and then committed suicide

2)A terrorist attack occurring on September 11th, 2001

3)The article referenced talks about the many different scenarios in which creative works were deemed lethal threats since violent scenes occurred either in schools or with authority figures

4)Anne Sexton, poet of the mid 20th century. Poetry usually consisted of her inner anguish of her everyday life

5)RAC stands for Remix Artist Collective. They’re a group of indie artists that remix several different genres that specifically stay away from “club music”

a way for me to get my face On TV, this is my

everything.

My roots [go] deeper, I am of a different breed,

This is how I breathe.

I open my mouth and out pour suicide notes

And four part harmony with Silvia,

Sexton⁴, and RAC⁵ and this is not a joke for me

And I take it personally, and I take it seriously

Is it any wonder when words fail me?

I just so badly want to say it right that sometimes

I fall silent

(I fall silent)

I’m just trying to say something

Undeniable.

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