Mary's Song Spring 2014 | Page 5

T E S T I M O N I E S Oh, So Good to Me By Daile Tait M y name is Daile and I am 34 years old. For the past 21 years I have been a binge addict with chronic relapses. At age 9 my father died of cancer from smoking and drinking. I became very angry at God for taking my dad away and I took it out on everyone. Growing up I was scared of loving my mom and losing her the same way I lost my dad. That would be too devastating and painful. My anger and hostility became a shield of protection for me, it blocked my emotions. If I was angry, I wouldn’t love, and if I didn’t love, I wouldn’t get hurt. My mom suffered a slow progressive tormenting death on an oxygen machine. I knew the same thing would happen to me if my habits didn’t change. God showed me that He didn’t take my mom and dad away because He didn’t love them or because they didn’t know and love Him. I feared getting a double dose of their death. I ݅