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titled Distance contains a ruler and sextant, while Time, the last piece in the series, was inspired by German novelist Thomas Mann’s Magic Mountain. She added words, using a brush to complete the painting, but didn’t like them, so she sanded them out and replaced them. “It has much more depth than the early pieces,” she says. Currently, she is working on two older works and adding a third to create a tryptych about capturing the moment. She describes it as a metaphorical piece about carpe diem—be in the now. Although Belknap has gained substantial recognition as a painter and has an impressive body of work, it took a long time for her to consider herself an artist. Discouragement came early, when she wanted to study at the Rhode Island School of Design after high school, but her parents wouldn’t allow it. Belknap explains that her family immigrated to the United States from Germany when she was young, and Germany didn’t have a history of women pursuing higher education, let alone art, and her parents were very conservative. “I think they were afraid I’d become a beatnik,” she says. She went to Sweet Briar College, a liberal arts school in Virginia, instead, where she studied the history of art, and then she returned to Germany to apply to art school but flunked the entrance exam after having difficulty with the life drawing section. Next, she moved to California and settled in Mill Valley, where she ran East Totem West, a shop where she created and sold art posters, with her first husband, Joe McHugh, in the late 1960s. Children and a satisfying second marriage to Dr. Robert Belknap followed, but still, the desire to go to art school persisted. “I just had this incredible, deep feeling that I wanted to do it,” she says, and so when she was in her 40s, she attended the San Francisco Art Institute in San Francisco, earned a Master of Fine Arts degree and at last acknowledged her status as an artist. “Art is instinctive. It won’t leave you alone. It keeps coming back and knocking you on the head,” she observes. “There’s always the next thing hanging over your head, and you don’t know what it is. I think it’s a lifelong pursuit. You’re never satisfied,” she says. She adds, however, that she feels privileged to have the freedom to follow her passion and says, “I feel lucky every day to be here.” Entanglements 29 Marin Arts & Culture