consciousness paradoxically on the boundary of the infinite void. Then I woke up.
I spent the next 10 years doing what normal children did, watching television, eating cereal, going to school then high school, playing hide and seek, experimenting with drugs, etc. All the while I quietly inside rebelled and refused any of the indoctrination measures the world and my teachers were trying to instill in me. How could I limit myself and my awareness to any “career” or identity based on a life path that made me forget who I really was, what I really was? Many times I would be sitting in class remembering what it must be like for the universal prime creator brian in the box to remember itself while playing in its own play. I would pretend I was this prime creator sitting there in math class quietly smiling inside blessing myself in all the myriad forms around me. It wouldn’t be until an overdose of what can only be an experimental hallucinogen at the age of seventeen that I would have my limited and separate illusion of self destroyed completely when my heart stopped.
Stay Tuned for the episode wherein we explore egoic death, physical death, and the struggle and freedom of consciously rebuilding a self.
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- Xavier Hawk
Mannabliss Tribe Speaks