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CROSSFIRE The New Year Question From Uncle Jerry That Got Me Thinking! By Herman Githinji S unday creeps on me with ease. It’s the day I take everything easy - I rest. I have been away visiting the village for the New Year Holidays. Now the celebrations are over. I watched my car being washed with a grin. The happenings of my last few days back in the farm occupied my mind - the fun, albeit the dirt roads and the cheeky village boys who seemed to always hoard around the worst parts of the road when the rains come. They charged me an arm and a leg to push my car out of the mud. It has been in them to extort money from the city boys who can’t wade knee deep mud to push their own cars. Is this a reflection of my New Year resolution? Anyways, while still reflecting on that at the car wash, guess who comes in? Uncle Jerry. Uncle Jerry is this type of relatives who have hang ups with life generally, and wants to advice everyone, any time. So, I said hi and braced myself for the next piece of advice. I knew it was coming. And he didn’t disappoint. He shot from the hip, “what are your new year plans, or are you just growing like a tree?” I smiled sheepishly like that was more of a joke than an abuse. I actually can’t remember answering him. I didn’t owe an answer. But that question got me thinking. So, you can actually grow like a tree? That happens when years just come and go, and all we are doing is just growing old, naturally, and actually not doing anything to develop ourselves. May be uncle Jerry Let us remember to do what we promised ourselves to do when we didn’t have that job, when we were broke, when we anx- iously waited for that medical result, when our partners or friends agreed to forgive us, when we were eating and enjoying a lot of unhealthy foods, when the landlord locked us out for delayed rent, when we were giv- en a second chance by our bosses. And lest we forget that life is a duality. So, when we are going downhill, we remember to reserve some fuel, because for sure, an uphill com- ing. 04 MAL28/19 ISSUE has always thought I grow like a tree because he has never seen any real fruits of my plans. But I set goals. That, I have always done for donkey years. Everyone, I guess, sets annual goals. The problem is in actualizing them. I know uncle Jerry would like to see me build houses for him to believe I set, and achieve, goals, but one of my new year goal is to lose some weight. I have always struggled with these three or four excess kilos that has always refused to go. So, I joined a gym. When I went for my first session, I was amazed by the number of people in attendance. The gym was too crowded for my liking. I complained. The manager comforted me: “This is only for January and Mid-February, after that everyone will forget their new year resolutions and fall back to their comfort zones.” That means we know what is right for us, and we set goals to achieve it. But why do we then drop the ball? When we set stretching goals, we know we will have to develop our abilities to achieve them. We know we will also have to change something, to start doing something or to stop doing something, or both. Most times what we must do is either something hard, or something we don’t like. And we don’t like pain. Hedonism is a school of thought that all human action is ultimately motivated by desires for pleasure and the avoidance of pain. While that is true, what we forget is that we have to undergo some pain at one time or another in order to enjoy a future pleasure. If you live all your life trying to maximize pleasure and escaping pain, then you will have to face the natural consequences of that lifestyle. Life is a duality. Every hill has a valley; every night has a day. Nothing good or bad lasts forever. So, we have to inject some managed pain, or deny ourselves, so as to enjoy a future benefit, or to escape a more severe pain. The problem comes when we want to maximize pleasure and somehow escape the consequences. Nature does not work like that. I met Jane in the gym. She is an old friend, and she has struggled with excessive weight for a long time. Now, the doctor says she must lose at least 20 kilos if she wants to see her 60th birthday. She is desperate. I told her she needs to stop eating some foods and start eating more vegies. She also needs to combine that with some vigorous cardio exercises. I told her that is what I have done all my life. She said: ‘’you are lucky you like running and you like those raw vegies.” I was like, woooh! Wait! Wait! When you see me running you think I love it? Far from it. You should see me when I am waking up to go run. I literally drag myself from the bed. I look for all excuses not to go for that run. When it starts to drizzle just before I step out, I get a perfect excuse. When I feel this way, and most often I do, I dig deep into my resolve of achieving this goal and of doing whatever it takes to achieve it. I promised to do this 10km then, I have to do it. I have to force myself to do the right thing. Not because I love it, but because it’s the only way. Ok, there is another way. Denying myself the pleasure that got me here in the first place. Eating healthy and less. But you should see me asking for more chocolate mud cake, adding more sugar into my tea, and stuff like that. At that point do you know what is going on in my mind? “but Herman you are going to jog 10k tomorrow, so why not?”. But when that tomorrow comes, the same mind sings another song. Hedonism is real. That is when I need to call in my resolve and force myself to face the pain of my yester decisions. We therefore need to learn how to work our mental strength, willpower or grit. It is very hard to find someone ticking all the relevant boxes when it comes to grit. Some are weak in controlling themselves in one area, and others are strong in controlling themselves in another. We can use the formula and grit in our strong areas to rub onto our weak side. When we have a problem, we know exactly what to do. But when life brightens a bit, and we have a breather, we go back to our life-as-usual mode. Before he left me, the same Uncle Jerry gave me a story: “do you remember this dog, Mote, you had in the village?” I said, “yes”. Mote used to wail loudly the whole night because it was freezing cold out there. “Do you know what it was saying?” I said no. He continued, “It used to cry and promise itself that when daylight comes, it must surely buy itself a blanket.” “But do you remember what happened when the day and sunshine broke every morning?” He asked. I nodded my head in affirmation. “Yes, you know, it forgot all the night miseries and jumped up and down, in joy, with its tail up. Now don’t be like Mote.” He concluded. Yes. I know that wasn’t kind, but let us all not be like Mote. Let us remember to do what we promised ourselves to do when we didn’t have that job, when we were broke, when we anxiously waited for that medical result, when our partners or friends agreed to forgive us, when we were eating and enjoying a lot of unhealthy foods, when the landlord locked us out for delayed rent, when we were given a second chance by our bosses. And lest we forget that life is a duality. So, when we are going downhill, we remember to reserve some fuel, because for sure, an uphill coming. Herman Githinji is a seasoned marketing practitioner and law graduate from the University Of Nairobi. Currently the CEO Bidco Land O’Lakes Company that makes quality Animal Feeds using American Technology. You can commune with him on this and related issues via email on: [email protected].