Lutheran Church of Mahomet, The Invitation Lent 2018 | Page 19

I moved to Mahomet and started putting my life together piece by piece and try-
ing to heal. I met my husband Tim and started imagining a future again. Tim had
lost his older brother a few years before and he was searching like I was. In that,
we both started to find hope and faith again. It wasn't an overnight thing. We
struggled finding a church, struggled with getting comfortable praying aloud with
one another, and struggled with putting God in between us. We can look back now
and see His plan was always there and He was leading us exactly where He want-
ed us, but we just couldn't see it.
Our path to one another and to God seemed broken, but our understanding of
Him over time became better. I know now that He never took anyone away from
me nor did He want to see me suffer. He was always there, never leaving me
when I turned from Him. He wept with me when I was hopeless and He waited for
me to turn to Him in prayer again. I found that through my disjointed and fum-
bled attempt at prayer, I did find Him again. I found the amazing peace that set-
tles after I've lifted up everything to Him. I found that the whispers I throw up to
Him to protect my children and husband are heard. I found that my pleas to help
me be a good mother in the wake of fear are answered with healing. I've learned
that no matter where you're at, what time of day or night matters, just as long as
you're talking with Him.
As a family, we've taught our kiddos to be comfortable praying, and to always seek
Him when you are happy, sad, lonely, or scared. Tim and I have been able to be
involved with the ministry of Kogodus; we've been able to lead a youth group that
we needed more than they ever needed us; and we'v