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STUDENT INTERNSHIP & EXTERNSHIP REFLECTIONS bring food: for this I am eternally grateful. great to see so many thriving, succeeding and saving lives. Lastly, it was incredibly rewarding to work with a multitude of impressive female doctors. I remember during a number of traumas, there would be multiple ED fellows, residents, nurses, a few consulting surgical or radiology residents, and paramedics in the trauma room. They were all women, except for me. And it was inspiring. In an unfair world where female doctors often are discouraged from trying medicine, are mistaken for nurses, or have to prove themselves “extra” to wear the mantle of physician, it was Brandon Chen is a second-year medical student at the University of Louisville School of Medicine. PEDIATRIC EXTERNSHIP REFLECTION PIECE 2019 I AUTHOR Allison Engelbrecht never could have imagined the impact this summer of shadowing would have on me. One four-week externship working with the incredible neonatology team at Norton Children’s Hospital gave me more growth and learning experiences than I ever thought possible. A little background: I had just finished my first year of medical school, and to be honest I was feeling proud. I now had so much medical information under my belt. Little did I know how green I was, walking into my first day in the NICU. I was so excited for the opportunity to work in the specialty that first led me to medicine! I had spent the night before brushing up on some common disorders and embryology we had covered in class, hoping to make a good first impression. I quickly realized how far behind I was; by the end of the first day I had so many questions I felt overwhelmed. The NICU was packed with high acuity patients, and it would have been easy for the team to prioritize a plethora of things before spending time with an “almost” second-year medical student. But, astoundingly, at the end of rounds the two residents on my team sat down with me and answered everything they could. They drew out heart pathology, they taught me shortcuts in EPIC - they took the time to help me get my bearings. By the third day, I was assigned my first patient to present. I was a bundle of nerves and practiced over and over the night before. Looking back now, I chuckle about how anxious I was. I didn’t know it at the time, but I was surrounded by supportive team members who would, over the next month, make me feel like I belonged on the team. They went out of their way to help me grow. That first week held a lot of new experiences for me, from seeing my patient each morning before rounds, to presenting his case, to coming up with plans for what steps to take. I was starting to get in the groove. I spent time at night looking up ways to help him grow and learning more about his medical conditions. I was learning for the sake of learning and it was fun. My first patient taught me more than what could be learned from books. He taught me that sometimes things don’t go as planned. He taught me the fragility of life. When he died suddenly and un- expectedly, it shook our team. Necrotizing enterocolitis totalis: a disease with a poorly understood etiology, came with no warning and took him quickly. I learned what it felt like to mourn the loss of a patient. Suddenly, I was able truly to understand the gift of life. My four weeks in the NICU shot past. I learned to do minor procedures, I got better at following and presenting my charges and I learned to write notes. I understood what it meant to find joy in the smallest of victories. I gained confidence in my ability to assess and plan patient care. I fell even more in love with neonatology. Mighty inspiration arises from the tiniest places - in my case, from the tiniest people. I am so thankful to have had the opportunity. Allison Engelbrecht is a second-year medical student at the University of Louisville School of Medicine JANUARY 2020 23