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part  inside  that  grows  on  people,     that  fails  to  feel  the  bits  of   himself  latching  onto  the  air     i  still  look  for  embers  when     the  sun  sets,  though  i  know     they’re  only  masks  that  the   preachers  use  to  keep  the     believers  coming  back,   somethings  inside  you     are  hard  to  fix,  and  my   insides  have  been  stunted   from  growing,  though  i     want  to  grow  whole     i’m  sharing  a  bed  with   someone  new,  time     standing  still,  time   not  messing  with  us,   he  makes  all  the  ticks   dissolve,  all  the  noise     subside,  but  my  body   quakes  in  wonder  for   the  moment  he  treads  on   snowfall  in  spring     we  are  walking  downhill,  our  feet   clinging  to  slippery  sidewalks  as   the  snow  falls  in  spring,  she  is  grey   outside,  i  often  wonder  if  the     north  has  always  been  so,  but     i  say  nothing  for  fear  of  looking   ignorant  in  your  presence       57