pretty good . I believed in Jesus from a young age , but my belief in Jesus has dramatically changed since I was a child . In some areas , I want to believe more like I did as a child , and in other areas , I ’ m incredibly grateful that His grace has radically changed how I think since I was a child . A subconscious thought for me as a kid , without sugar coating it , was that I was better than other people . In my eyes , though I knew I needed Jesus , I still thought other people needed Him more because their sin seemed to be more visible . Now as an adult , I consciously know that I NEED HIM even more than everyone else . I mean , I know we all need Him , but God has met me in such a way that I have no doubt that I really , really need Him , just as much as we all do . There is no meter , no measure , of who needs His grace more , because we all desperately need it . Without His grace , there wouldn ’ t be a gospel . Without His grace , we would not have the hope of salvation . Our righteousness , without the blood of Jesus covering us , is nothing . And that is why we are all desperate for His grace that He has given as a free gift to those who believe .
I ’ ll never forget the moment when the reality that I had this subconscious belief was brought to my attention . I remember talking to my mom one day about a friend who had done something “ bad .” In my eyes at the time , they had committed a horrible sin . And subconsciously , I began to look at them differently . I had trouble seeing my friend without thinking about what they had done . Maybe you can relate to this ? And as I sat across from my mom , explaining my thought process , she looked at me and said , “ Laney , your righteousness is no greater than theirs . . . It ’ s the same blood .” She went on to explain what she meant by that , and as she continued , I remember just having a complete reality check . It was a moment of realizing that I had really believed that other people needed the blood of Jesus more than I did , and man , that could not be further from the truth .
This is just one example of many beliefs God has changed , shifted , and completely rewired over the course of my life . He has changed my mind and my heart a million ways and a million different times . And to be honest , I pray He never stops changing me , that I ’ m always learning new things about who He is and seeing more of the extravagant love He has poured out for us . Growing and changing , rewiring , believing new things about Him , and oftentimes uprooting old things we have believed about Him is just part of the journey . It ’ s part of growing and being His daughter . Although telling you that I used to have a subconscious belief that I was better than other people is not something I ’ m proud of , I also have no shame in sharing that with you because of what God has done in my heart since then .
Uprooting beliefs that aren ’ t true of who God
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