Le Nuage Issue One | Page 4

LONDON FASHION WEEK A/W 2014 THE PARADOX ashion Week is a paradox: it’s exactly how you expect it; clothes, glamour, bitchiness. And then, it’s not. The rain, the rush, the fact some people are there just to say they went, not because they love the fashion. This season was my first ever fashion season, I was only lucky enough to go to London Fashion Week but, as a girl who has obsessively watched and studied fashion for the past eight years, that was enough. Friday morning was the first day and it was the day I was to meet the editor of an online magazine I write for, LDNXX. And here is the paradox: at 9.30am Somerset House saw me standing in the courtyard, windswept and absolutely freezing, F not feeling glamorous at all in my full length denim dress paired with my Vivienne Westwood T-shirt, Topshop laundry-check socks and calf-length black fur coat. But, despite looking half asleep and windswept by London’s brilliant winter weather, people are taking pictures of me. Why? My first show was Jamie Wei Huang, an upand-coming designer who studied at Central Saint Martins, and was eventually mentored by Stella McCartney. The clothes were brilliant; feminine, strong, warrior-like. And, as I was backstage, I felt lost in this world of glamour and elegance that I had dedicated myself to so long ago. I was clumsily bumping into photographers and nervously introducing myself to people. But, by the end of the show my confidence returned as I realized that I had just survived the worst of it all by overcoming the obstacles of what I like to call ‘First Show Freakishness’. By Monday, I had covered three shows backstage and was undoubtedly getting better at the constant social networking of Fashion Week. Survival instincts kicked in as I learnt to brush off any harsh looks or sarcastic comments and instead sought out people who weren’t caught up with social hierarchy. Then came the Giles show. This was the dealbreaker as to whether I have truly toughened up. By then, I felt trained » in the art of fashion week frolicking but I hadn’t been to a show yet that had so many people I respected. The minute I arrived backstage I was hit again by the awful feeling of not belonging, essentially feeling like a pigeon in a room of doves. Giles Deacon casually strolled past me, and I thought I was going to have a heart attack then and there. As I tried to do my job by listening to the head hair stylist talking about inspiration behind the look and appear like a serious journalist, the beautiful Malaika Firth sauntered past and completely threw me off guard. It went too quickly. Once I had warmed up, made some friends and actually got used to the prese