KWEE Liberian Literary Magazine Jan. Iss. Vol. 0115 Mar Vol. 0315 | Page 37

Liberian Literary Magazine Promoting Liberian literature, Arts and Culture I WISH I COULD HAVE TOLD YOU And now, You are gone. I have listened to your advice. You insisted on telling me how it was for you as a girl and how you did this and that. Where are you when I need the strength I saw in you when I was a child? I cannot reach you. I tell you I am tired. I am not listening anymore. I have taken your advice and where has it gotten me? Right here! Just where I DO NOT want to be! I am angry! Do you understand? Angry! I am your child. first-hop into the grip of hysteria saddened maddened by despair rage caged bird sings no one hears no one cares no one fears for her life © 2013 “MY SOUL CRIES” You left me. I hate that but I know I can never hate you. I will always love you, Mummy. © 2013 “MY SOUL CRIES” From now on, I don’t need you, I don’t want you I am not listening to you. But, you can no longer hear me. You are no longer with me. You are in another place giving advice. Being yourself. Why were you never your true self with ME? Why all the pretense? Why all the hypocrisy? It was not necessary. I would have still loved you. Always, I would have. But you kept a wedge between us. I cannot understand why you did this but you did. DESPAIR she held her life in her hands as if it were a hot potato bruised skin scorched blackened burning to touch up down up down bouncing 37 Cher-Antoinette is a mother of two, a forensic scientist and is a multiple silver and bronze award winner at the Barbados National Independence Festival of Creative Arts (NIFCA) in Photography, Visual Arts and Literary Arts. Cher-can be contacted at [email protected] and has a social media presence at https://www.facebook.com /CorbinGirl http://cherinsight.blogspot.com and on Twitter @cherinsight Instagram @CherAntoinetteStudio