Journaled Volume One - Page 15

Day Three: "The only lies for which we are truly punished are those we tell ourselves."

In a free state V.S. Naipaul

I ache when you smile

Cause I no longer bring you joy

I sigh when you laugh

Cause I am no longer the reason

The way your eyes light up

It no longer affects me

When we accidentally touch

My knees aren't jelly

Butterflies no longer reside in my abdomen

My feelings have dissipated

I care about you no longer

And if I tell myself this enough

If I try hard enough

Maybe I won't care that one day she will exist

That she...

Brings you joy

That she

Makes you laugh

That she

Is the light in your eyes

That she

Won't be me