Journaled Volume Four - Page 7

I should have done this from the beginning, but I'm a jerk who only thought about her own feelings. Which brings me to the point of this letter, if you haven't guessed it by now.

You are the lucky recipient of all my crazy, nuerotic feelings. That is why I couldn't keep just having causual sex, I need more. I understand if you don't feel the same way, and if you're pissed, but I needed to get this out of my head.

I've been playing out this scenario for quite some time. So, if you ever read this that is the reason I've been all over the place lately. I just have this little, teensy piece of hope that I didn't invent all of this. That over the past four months you've felt something too. If you don't it's okay I'll live.

But regardless of how you feel can we just agree to not make things awkward? I most likely will be spending less time hanging out with you guys since we aren't a 'we' anymore. He won't care because I annoy him anyway, and I was only there for you anyway. Okay, so I'm going to stop before I write something completely embarssing.