CHAPTER XXV 355 proceeded .
" All day yesterday I was very busy , and very happy in my ceaseless bustle ; for I am not , as you seem to think , troubled by any haunting fears about the new sphere , et cetera : I think it a glorious thing to have the hope of living with you , because I love you . No , sir , don ' t caress me now -- let me talk undisturbed . Yesterday I trusted well in Providence , and believed that events were working together for your good and mine : it was a fine day , if you recollect -- the calmness of the air and sky forbade apprehensions respecting your safety or comfort on your journey . I walked a little while on the pavement after tea , thinking of you ; and I beheld you in imagination so near me , I scarcely missed your actual presence . I thought of the life that lay before me -- YOUR life , sir -- an existence more expansive and stirring than my own : as much more so as the depths of the sea to which the brook runs are than the shallows of its own strait channel . I wondered why moralists call this world a dreary wilderness : for me it blossomed like a rose . Just at sunset , the air turned cold and the sky cloudy : I went in , Sophie called me upstairs to look at my wedding-dress , which they had just brought ; and under it in the box I found your present -- the veil which , in your princely extravagance , you sent for from London : resolved , I suppose , since I would not have jewels , to cheat me into accepting something as costly . I smiled as I unfolded it , and devised how I would tease you about your aristocratic tastes , and your efforts to masque your plebeian bride in the attributes of a peeress . I though how I would carry down to you the square of unembroidered blond I had myself prepared as a covering for my low-born head , and ask if that was not good enough for a woman who could bring her husband neither fortune , beauty , nor connections . I saw plainly how you would look ; and heard your impetuous republican answers , and your haughty disavowal of any necessity on your part to augment your wealth , or elevate your standing , by marrying either a purse or a coronet ."
" How well you read me , you witch !" interposed Mr . Rochester : " but what did you find in the veil besides its embroidery ? Did you find poison , or a dagger , that you look so mournful now ?"