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wedding date. Now I find myself
looking at the number of days
left until our wedding and
wishing that there were a few
extra tucked in there just to be
safe. I often find myself looking
at projections of when this is
supposed to end and each time
I realize that no one knows the
answer to that question. As
someone who needs a plan and
doesn’t like change at all, this
has proven to be a very difficult
pill to swallow.
As I’m looking at projections and data from
this pandemic, I feel so selfish for worrying
about something so trivial when others
are dealing with so much bigger things.
My heart breaks for those that have lost
loved ones and have sick loved ones that
are battling this virus. As someone who has
loved ones that are very near and dear to
me in the medical field fighting this battle, I
am constantly in prayer for their health and
safety. These things are so so much bigger.
It seems so silly and selfish of me to be
worrying about my wedding during a time
that is so scary and heartbreaking.
I keep saying that this was supposed to be a
happy time. It was. It is. The months before
your wedding should be so very happy. I
am thrilled that I’m going to be marrying
the absolute best person I’ve ever met and
my best friend in just a few short days,
but that doesn’t mean I’m not sad about a
few things too. No one wants to cancel a
wedding shower or a bachelorette party.
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No one wants to face the fact that the store
where you are going to be renting the tuxes
for your wedding is closed, and you don’t
know when they’ll open back up again. No
one wants to face the idea that your still
unaltered wedding dress is in a store that is
closed for weeks. No one wants to wonder
if they’ll have to cancel their wedding or
risk not having their loved ones there to
celebrate with them. I didn’t plan for any of
this. This was supposed to be my “smooth
sailing” time.
Though COVID-19 wasn’t in my carefully
laid out plans, it didn’t take God by surprise.
The Lord has been teaching me so much
through this time about trust, faith, and
hope. Though I don’t understand it and I
don’t pretend to, I know that God is faithful
and there’s not a day that goes by that He’s
not by our side. He is a good Father. We are
trusting and believing that just as we’ve
seen Him move mountains before, we will
see Him move them again. He has a plan
and His plan is absolutely perfect.
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