INSIGHT Magazine October 2013 | Page 61

Monday pages and escape to the places that have become my own. There are so many faces there. Some of them are smiling, happy faces. Some of them are terrible to behold, full of anger and hatred. I love them all. I used to go out more. Spring was my favorite. Everyone creeps from their homes like butterflies emerging from cocoons, vibrant and fresh… ready to take on the new adventure. Flowers unfurl their petals to greet the bright sunlit sky, and all the insects of the world buzz and hum and flutter. She used to love the spring, as well. I would hold her hand and walk with her in the park, the sun warming our bare arms and creating little beads of sweat on our necks. We would pass old men feeding birds, or happy young couples with a dog or a child. I remember those days, at least. They haven’t gotten that much, yet. I’m old now, though, and I don’t know what they did with her. I crack my curtains in the morning, but my wrinkled old hands can only take the sunlight for so long before I must pull the dusty cloth closed again. I don’t recall when my skin started feeling like paper mache, as if the lightest tug would shred it to pieces. Sometimes, when I’m reading, I start to notice the wrinkled lines at the base of my fingernails. My fingers themselves look like thin, gnarled branches with brown paper bags wrapped about them. If I turn my hands over, I see the blue veins through the partially translucent skin of my wrists. On cold nights, I fancy those veins carry ice rather than blood. Maybe they really do. I know I am old, but I never meant to be. I can’t recall how it happened. That Monday was terrible, though. I think they make me remember because it was terrible. They are vile, and evil, and each Monday they inflict their torment upon me. I was sitting here, in this very chair, rocking back and forth while I read one of my stories. They came then, for the first time. At least, I think it was the first time. I can’t be certain. The room was dark, as it usually is when the curtains are shut, but I could see them after they pulled the cloth back. Only then do I realize that I’m not in the chair, anymore. I’m not sure where they take me. They have me tied down, unable to move, INSIGHT and all I can see is their hideous features and the bright white of the unnatural lights behind them. The first thing you would notice, if you could see them, is the hair. It writhes, all long and wiry, oh yes. It is hair like planted snakes, all with their tails tied up in a little ball and buried in the soil. Yes… snake plants, only not so thick. It isn’t like Medusa and they haven’t made me stone. Oh no, no, no. They’ve only made me like paper mache, but their wiry-thin hair writhes about all the time. That is the first thing you would notice, but it isn’t the worst. No, what’s under the hair is what makes me dread my Mondays – that, and not knowing what they did with her. It was a her, wasn’t it? I suppose it could’ve been a him, but somehow that doesn’t feel quite right. Was it a he that held my hand in the park? Did I brush the knots out of his hair? No, that can’t be it. It had to be a her, only… what on Earth F?BF?W?F??v?F??W#???????Bv2???F?v?V??B7F'FVB?6?( ?B&V6??F?RF??R??F??( ?B&V?V?&W"v?WF?W"?Bv0?&????r?'WB?F?????Bv2v??FW"???&R?Bv26??v??r?WG6?FR??"??&R?Bv2&????r?f?"??????p??Bv2?W'&?6?R??F??( ?B???rv?BF?W?F?Bv?F???W"?V?F?W"??6?( ?B&V?V?&W"???bF?W6RF???w2?'WB?????r?Bv2???F??N( ?2?v?2???F???F?Rf?'7BF??RF?W?6?R???V&BF?R6??r?B7FVG??G&??b6??WF???r??F?Rv??F?r6?????( ????B7W&R?`??Bv2?6R?V?F??r??"&??6???V7F??r??F?Rv??F?p??B666F??rF?v???&V?V?&W"F?R??"?F??Vv??F?@?v?'??w&?F???r?72?b???G2?BF?v?W2?&V??r?2F?P?6?????B?6?( ?B??B?Bw&????VB??R??R?'WB6???F???B????v??FR?F?RW?W2&R'&?v?B?B?V???r???P?F?RF??bF???f??R??B&V???BF?V?F?RWf????@??bF??Vb?v?V?F?W????????F?&V7F?????6?fVV??F?V?6VV??rF?&?Vv??R2?bF?W?&R??????rB6??WF???r?W7B&W???B???WfW"??Wrf?&R6?V?B&R6??B?'W@???F??6RW?W2?( ?fR?V&?VB?F?W'v?6R??&V??rF?RW?W2?F??Vv??F?W&R?2??F???r?????6R??????WF????6?VV?2???6???????F?W&R?26???F?W&^( `??BV??Vv?76Rv?W&R???bF?W6RF???w26??V?B&P???7F?&W"#0???c???