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Mike no choice but to simply shut down and grieve. Which happened organically, cathar- tically through his new music, first issued as a three-elegy EP this January (also dubbed Post Traumatic) then expanded into the full album version this June. Currently, he’s venturing out of his retreat to present the songs virtually alone onstage, for fullest impact. s far as album titles go, Linkin Park guitarist Mike Shinoda couldn’t have chosen a more apt — and dig- nified — one than Post Traumatic, which pretty much sums up the surreal, decidedly painful past year of his life. On May 26 in IE: The actor Ron Livingston was making the talk show rounds, chatting up his new suicide-themed TV series A Million Little Things, which follows other trendy shows like 13 Reasons Why. Has suicide suddenly been crassly commodified? Mike Shinoda: Ah! You know that I’m kind of involved with that, right? My friend D.J. Nash wrote the show – he created it. And he 2017, Chester Bennington — his band’s charismatic but mercurial mouthpiece — stood up at the Hollywood Forever Cemetery and delivered one of his most touching performances ever, a heartfelt ren- dition of Leonard Cohen’s signature dirge “Hallelujah,” as his good friend Chris Cornell was laid to rest after a rumored sui- cide. Two months later, on July 20, Bennington himself committed suicide by hanging, just as the group’s seventh mono- lithic set One More Light was rolling out. It was a shock that no one saw coming. And Shinoda – as busy as he is at 41 with his spinoff combo Fort Minor, and work in pro- duction, fine art, even graphic design – had had an experience that was similar to mine, and as he was writing the show, he couldn’t have been more focused on getting it right. My wife (Anna Hillinger) is an author, and she says that one of the problems in litera- ture is that they use suicide as a plot point. It’s minimized just to keep the story going or to wedge against a story. But D.J.’s show is entirely different, and suicide is certainly not reduced to a plot point. He created a whole universe around this very real sce- nario, and he checked in with everybody about it. Like, What’s the reality of this? What’s the right way to tell this story? The right way to handle this topic? I think he did a great job. We talked about me doing some A 11•2018 8 illinoisentertainer.com november 2018 Mike Shinoda music for it, but it didn’t happen naturally, so I didn’t do any, IE: Just playing devil’s advocate here, but it is an incredibly creepy world we live in, with humanity just hurtling toward extinc- tion. I wouldn’t blame someone who truly wanted to leave. MS: I have a couple of things to say about that. I’ll start with a more specific thing and then broaden out. Specifically, with artists who are creative – especially ones who’ve had success – there’s a pressure to repeat it. And there’s a pressure to embody it, to be the thing that people expect you to be, which are two different things, by the way. And that pressure is put on the creative in part by their own drive to be great. Because you start out as a kid who wants so badly to be good at a thing or playing an instrument, and you read amazing stuff and hear amaz- ing stuff about stars, and you think, “Man. I would love to be that good.” But the truth is, you can’t control it. And I’m not necessarily talking about commercial success – there have been times when I’ve written some- thing where I’ve been like, “Wow. That real- ly was the song I hoped it would be.” And it doesn’t have to be everybody’s favorite song, and it doesn’t have to get a bajillion streams on whatever service you’ve got. Sometimes you just feel like you nailed it. But then you sit down the next day, and you go, “My God! Can I do that again?” People