-ator . And we all look different , we all look and think different , but we ' re all here on this planet , and we all come from the same source , which is this creative intelligence that surpasses our understanding . But it ' s a source of wisdom and love , and anything that doesn ' t align

receive " and " Knock , and the door shall be opened ." I was knocking a long time before I was shown that experience , so I believe it was all divine timing . It happened when it was supposed to happen , and now here we are with " Gifts From the Holy Ghost ." I was struggling with alcoholism , and I was supposed to believe in a higher power , but I didn ' t know what that was . So I believed there was something out there , but I just wanted conscious contact with it , or Him , or whatever you want to call it . I wonder if you can ' t even put a gender on it .

IE : Did you then follow through and start attending church ? DM : I continued my journey in the recovery

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with that is not from God , in my opinion , and my experience . So it was such an eye-opening experience , on a cellular level , on a spiritual level , and it just changed everything . And after that , I was like , " Wow . This is real ." And I realize that some people really struggle with their faith or are like , " What am I here for ? What am Idoinginlife ?" ButIwasaskingallthosequestions , and they say , " Ask , and you shall

program and got into meditation . But I actually did not attend church . Not until I had a relapse in 2020 and went to rehab in Nashville . And because of Covid , they isolated everybody in a medical building , and you had to wait for your tests to come back . Well , I checked in on Halloween , under a full moon - - it was crazy . And my relapse wasn ' t that bad , but I knew where it could potentially head

because I know enough about alcoholism to know that I can ' t really take one drink – I ' m wired a little differently than the person who can have half a glass of wine and walk away . So I thought , " We ' re in the middle of this Apocalypse , so I ' m going to rehab before this gets any worse ." And I believe that God allows us to go through things that shape and mold us . So I was sitting in my room at rehab , waiting for my Covid test – which was negative , everything was fine – and I had a Joel Olsteen book called I Declare . And I could not stand Joel Olsteen , but I loved the messages in the

book – they were really uplifting and inspiring . So I started watching his sermons on a tablet because we didn ' t have our phones , and I was not Christian , I didn ' t like church , I didn ' t like religion , and I didn ' t understand the Bible -- none of that stuff . But I loved the stuff he was saying and the messages he was imparting . So I ' m watching his sermon , and he invites us to say the prayer at the end , and I don ' t know what came over me -- I just did it . And it was funny because we were so isolated , and without human contact , you kind of lose it a little bit . So we weren ' t allowed to leave our