If and Only If: A Journal of Body Image and Eating Disorders Winter 2015 | Page 42

Marion Deutsche Cohen

Some Photos

(1) There goes Marion, eating again.

Marion always smiles when she eats.

She’s queen of the feast, her feast, doesn’t Marion know it’s other people’s feast too?

How come nobody else here is eating?

They’re all simply smiling, the way they were asked, they’re able to stop eating for

a second.

How come Marion isn’t?

(2) Here’s another typical Marion.

Not only that slightly-buck tooth but the other teeth

just not regular enough

and shining.

Or maybe it’s not the teeth, maybe it’s the hair

beginning too far up, too much forehead.

Or the square chin or too much cheek

high cheekbones, yes, as high as one could ask

but low, too, too much cheekbone

something too much.

(3) Why’s Marion got her hand out like that?

What’s she smoothing out?

What’s she pushing again?

What’s she pushing away?

(4) Ah now, that’s a Marion.

Cute, young, the way she always looks.

Hair just right, falling forward, covering enough of her cheek and forehead

aquiline nose truly aquiline

eyes somehow wide.

Marion in motion, the way she looks in the mirror

the way she looks in thrift stores

the way she looks doing a poetry reading.

There we go, that’s real Marion.

Every once in a while Marion becomes real.