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You really know that you are ready for research when you realize that half of what you know is wrong, and you do not know which half. That is the temperament and attitude one must bring into research. pneumococcal, giving a 3:1 odds of pneumococcal pneumonia in people with bulging fissures, then I could have defended. But, I never did find such literature! You learn a lot. But the point is learning to think. It is a very im- portant art of medicine as well as of research. I knew from the be- ginning that I am not comfortable doing medicine or anything else, unless I understood why. Given the fact that medicine is so empirical and we understand so little of what we actually do, will almost always lead you towards a dual medicine and research career. If I had been in the US, I would have probably still been doing a dual medicine and research career, where I would be seeing patients just a couple of months a year. But when I came back to India, I didn’t find any job with such a description. So, at this point, I’d say the best answer to your question is, I think I knew it always. 96 VP: Many people who come to AIIMS as UGs (at least those who tend to stay in India), be- come PGs and even faculties here. So do you think, they don’t get a chance to look at the bigger picture? AA: See, we also have a profound sense of arrogance! We all know that. Almost all of us at the time of admission, let me just be frank, can recognize the difference be- tween those who got in and who didn’t get in. Few of your friends who should’ve got in didn’t, but typically, you can recognize the type of people who get in to AIIMS. They’re all typically smart, they’re maths strong, GK strong. They’re this type of “AIIMS” per- sons. Then you see faculty also. And then you think that this is the place where the best medical re- search occurs in the country. And then when you see the research, you imagine that that’s the best re- search that could be. Because when we are the best and the best people must do the best research and this is the research, therefore logic says this is the best research. Which is a bad logic! This arrogance shuts your eyes. You think, this is what it is and you be happy with it. That’s the fault in our research. If we had man- aged to get out and start seeing, in the world of cholera, who does the best research? In the world of TB who does the best research? You would’ve quickly found that the best research in TB is done by the TB research institute in Chen- nai. You’d have found that the best research in cholera happens at Kolkata. The best genetics work in India probably happens at CCMB, IGIB or IISc. NOT AT AIIMS. In fact, the main genetics research that happens at AIIMS, happens mostly with us. But we wouldn’t know that. Because we were those little frogs in the well. Our access to our worlds was our teachers and our friends. And our friends also haven’t been out. We could talk to our seniors but they also haven’t been outside. These things have changed, but at least in my time, it was this way. Today I get to see on social media, lots of your seniors are going to externships. See, our time it was difficult. One, India was poor, so the idea to buy an air ticket to do an externship in the US sim- ply didn’t exist. Our parents had to put together a substantial amount of savings together to send any- one of us out. Maybe those peo- ple who return are giving you guys inputs about how different things are. Then, internet has become a great equalizer. So I hope that you guys growing up now, have a better sense of what is possible compared to what we did. Sometimes when I talk to people, it doesn’t seem that I was totally wrong in showing ‘the