Rambling.Thinking.hoping.
By: Mali Fenning
have gone through life seeing the truth and feeling everything so raw to the point where I get scarred and hurt all the time. But it's not bad. I think it is shaping me to be something wonderful.
I just don’t know what that wonderful is.
I want to go to college. But I also want to hitchhike across the country and stand up for my community and travel and I wonder if I can do that all if I am attending a university. But I can’t do anything if I don’t have any money. I don't have any at all. Money is awful and I hate it. People are unhappy when they have none and people are unhappy when they have it all.
People are just unhappy. And constantly talking about their unhappiness. Everyone is so caught up thinking they have to be happy all the time when really life isn’t about that. Life is about accepting everything that comes and working through it and cherishing the happy moments. I am not always happy and I am not always sad. Most of the time everything just simply is and when I can accept that, I can breathe a little bit because really nothing is in my control but I know it will be ok. At least this is what I have to tell myself to settle the constant anxiety lingering in my soul.
One day I will feel weightless, but today is not that day so all I can do is breathe. I wonder when the day will come when I feel weightless and unafraid.
Photo Taken by: Clio Fleece