I lit incense and now I’m light headed. I light incense almost everyday, and I’ve never been light headed before from it. I think this is just a sign that I shouldn’t be productive.
I was going to wake up today and do a bunch of scholarly type stuff, but instead I rolled out of bed at 12 pm. I’ve done nothing today but I’m not really mad about it. Days like these, I’m all alone. Just me and my dog and my cat. And my phone and my computer and all of the tens of thousands of things I could be doing, but instead I watch Mac Miller and Tyler the Creator interviews and I listen to Janelle Monae and Wondaland speak about police brutality and about making a change in the community. I read FOAR (Jimmy Murtons) blog post and I walk around my gritty city and think. I think about who I am and what I’m doing.
I wonder if these days where I do “nothing” are the most damaging or if they are the most successful. I love reading and watching interviews when artist talk about life in an honest way. I love learning from them. It makes me want to live, but I don’t even know where to start. It makes me want to engross myself in art. Tyler says to just go out and do it and have no doubts and Janelle says focus on your community and Mac Miller is finding his identity while Jimmy is hitch hiking across the country. Its all beautiful. Life is beautiful, and I love these people who are living it.
It’s odd though because I don’t know them. I don’t know them at all, but artist truly inspire me because they experience everything so honestly and raw. That’s how I to be something wonderful.