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SOURCES: U.S. DEPARTMENT OF DEFENSE, U.S. DEPARTMENT OF VETRANS AFFAIRS HEALING people in the room, and they got it. I didn’t need to have anyone say it’s OK, because it’s not OK — that would have just pissed me off.” What was the response of his peers? “It was silence,” he said. “That unsaid, ‘I don’t care what you did, we are still good.’ “People give you space. And they got a therapy dog in there, and he comes over and wags his tail a little bit, tells you it’s OK, too, you know? Not saying it’s OK, but just to say you’re not some wicked person.” Felipe Tremillo, the Marine staff sergeant, took part in the San Diego program last fall. One assignment was to write an imaginary letter of apology. His was intended for a young Afghan boy whom he had glimpsed during a raid in which Marines busted down doors and ejected people from their homes while they searched inside for weapons. The boy had stood trembling as Tremillo and the Marines rifled through the family possessions, his eyes, Tremillo felt, blazing shame and rage. “I didn’t know his name,” Tremillo said. But in his letter, “I told him how sorry I was at how I affected his life, that he didn’t have a fair chance to have a happy life, HUFFINGTON 03.16-23.14 TROOPS SEE THINGS THEY CAN’T FORGET A study of the 3,761 paratroopers and marines after returning from combat in Iraq in late 2003 found grim results about troops’ exposure to morally damaging events. 48% Killed an enemy combatant Were responsible for the death of a non-combatant 14% 65% 28% Handled or uncovered human remains 50% 57% Saw ill or injured women or children whom you were unable to help 69% 83% 22% 26% Had a buddy shot or hit who was nearby Paratroopers Marines 21% 19% Saved the life of a soldier or civilian THE WOUNDS THAT DON’T SHOW Mental health wounds far outnumber physical injuries in Iraq and Afghanistan. Physically wounded Affected by PTSD 52,000 Between 275,000 and 500,000 based off of our actions as a unit.” Writing the letter, he said, “wasn’t about me forgiving myself, more about accepting who I am now.” Former Navy psychiatrist William P. Nash takes a slightly different approach in the experimental sessions he runs. His pioneering work with moral injury grew out of his experience as a combat therapist deployed with