Huffington Magazine Issue 89 | Page 56

HUFFINGTON 02.23.14 THRIVE get even more out of it.’ The caveat of this success, however, had personal repercussions: I never relaxed. . . . I was increasingly stressed. . . . Not only was I posting once every ten minutes for twelve hours straight, but I also worked for the two and a half hours before we started posting and late into the night to prepare for the next day.” She finally decided to leave Jezebel. “It took over a year to decompress . . . a year until I was focusing more on myself than on what was happening on the Internet.” Since my own final straw moment, I have become an evangelist for the need to disconnect from our always-connected lives and reconnect with ourselves. It has guided the editorial philosophy behind HuffPost’s twenty-six Lifestyle sections in the United States, in which we promote the ways that we can take care of ourselves and lead balanced, centered lives while making a positive difference in the world. As HuffPost is spreading around the world, we’re incorporating this editorial priority into all our international editions—in Canada, the United Kingdom, France, Italy, Spain, Germany, as well as in Japan, Brazil, and South Korea. I remember it as if it were yes- terday: I was twenty-three years old and I was on a promotional tour for my first book, The Female Woman, which had become an unexpected international bestseller. I was sitting in my room in some anonymous European hotel. The room could have been a beautifully arranged still life. There were yellow roses on the desk, Swiss chocolates by my bed, and French champagne on ice. The only noise was the crackling of the ice as it slowly melted into water. The voice in my head was much louder. “Is that all there is?” Like a broken record, the question famously posed by Peggy Lee (for those old enough to remember) kept repeating itself in my brain, robbing me of the joy I had expected to find in my success. “Is that really all there is?” If this is “living,” then what is life? Can the goal of life really be just about money and recognition? From a part of myself, deep inside me—from the part of me that is my mother’s daughter—came a resounding “No!” It is an answer that turned me gradually but firmly away from lucrative offers to speak and write again and again on the subject of “the female woman.” It started me instead on the first step of a long journey. My journey from that first moment of recognition that I didn’t want to live my life within the