Huffington Magazine Issue 69 | Page 36

BROOKE KELLY/COURTESTY OF JOANNA MONTGOMERY Voices ed, man-made nipples attached in the next few months, and later have color tattooed on them for good measure. The new nipples (“fips”) will hide some of the existing scars, and hopefully will be nice and round and perky. But they’ll have no feeling. They’ll just be there as accessories. Like earrings. And while I still look cute in a sexy bra, I no longer walk around topless, and now tend to sleep in camisoles rather than in the buff. I’m also somewhat shy around my husband, and am still shocked at times when I look in the mirror. It’s an adjustment, for all of us, even my toddler who gently pats the boo-boos she now sees on my chest. For me, the psychological impact of losing my breasts was much greater than the physical impact. I am healing rapidly and know that the physical scars will fade. I also know that I made the right decision for me and my family. But those of us who either opted to have mastectomies as a preventative measure, or had mastectomies as a life-saving measure, aren’t excited about our “new boobs.” In truth, we’ll never be the same. We see ourselves dif- JOANNA MONTGOMERY HUFFINGTON 10.06.13 What is attached to my chest right now are a pair of silicone implants with no breast tissue in front of them. I am essentially sporting implants covered with skin.” ferently now when we look in the mirror, because we are different, inside as well as outside. But at least we’re here, stronger and wiser for the experience. Joanna Montgomery is a mother and breast cancer survivor. Montgomery in 2012, after she had started treatment for Stage IIIC Fallopian tube cancer.