Huffington Magazine Issue 64-65 | Page 73

HUFFINGTON 09.01-08.13 COURTESY OF MIKE MCMICHAEL INVISIBLE CASUALTIES us with that. Because I know the plan and it’s a good plan and I know you mean it.” Later, she explained, “I felt if I had not taken that threat seriously, it would only have escalated, and he’d been through so many bouts of anxiety and depression and desperation that he could have easily gone and done something.” She dragged Mike off to the Durham VA Medical Center. It was 2008, almost four years after he was blown up in Iraq. His TBI finally was diagnosed. Doctors listened. Mike got counseling, medication. He took part in a 10-week program for veterans with PTSD at the Salem VA Medical Center, where veterans use role-playing to re-live traumatic combat experiences in which they feel they failed. “You’ll have guys telling you, ‘Dude, it’s okay, you did the best that could be done there, it’s okay to let it go,’” Mike recalled. “It’s a fantastic program,” Mike said. “I’d always said, don’t ever take me to the VA. But I’ve had amazing experiences with the VA. Every once in awhile I call to thank them for saving my life.” ‘MY HUSBAND IS A HERO’ Of course, it hasn’t been easy, and the McMichaels’ future is uncertain. Today, almost nine years after his wartime experiences derailed the life that he and Jackie had imagined, Mike is still in a fragile state. He is unable to handle financial transactions, and still struggles with memory. He regularly sees therapists and doctors, even acupuncturists. He does yoga for exercise and relaxation. His medications seem to be keeping him in balance. Jackie taped pictures of Mike at eye level around the house so that their son, born just two weeks before Mike’s deployment, would recognize him.