Huffington Magazine Issue 22 | Page 78

HUFFINGTON 11.11.12 NO WAY OUT “Everything that I really have to have in my life is in this book bag,” she says. She pulls out one of those items, a piece of plywood with a phone number written across it in pencil, the number of a man with a vacant apartment who will accept the so-called Section 8 voucher she has recently secured, entitling her to federally subsidized rent. Assuming that his apartment passes a required inspection, she can move in three weeks from this day. “Three weeks,” she says repeatedly, as if chanting a phrase that will open the gates to a better world. “If I can make it through these three weeks.” The Number 4 bus makes its way past the hulking shells of dismantled factories now shadowed by knee-high weeds, then across a highway overpass, and past a cemetery for soldiers, the white markers laid out like dominoes. It rolls past an Applebee’s restaurant, a Krispy Kreme donut shop, a Bi-Lo supermarket, and a pawnshop. It goes by the Hamilton Inn, a tan fortress of a motel shimmering in the heat, where Smith knows a room with a minirefrigerator and stovetop can be had for $231.72 a week, but where vacancies are rare. It goes past Fast Quick Loans, where a yellow banner draped across the storefront promises: “First Loan Free.” “Most of the time, I doze off,” Smith says, “but sometimes I look out the window. It’s relax- “I’M NOT ONE TO GIVE UP HOPE, BUT, MAN, IT MAKES YOUR SELF-ESTEEM DROP. YOUR CONFIDENCE DISAPPEARS.” ing. You can look at things and get a better view.” The bus goes past a Sears department store and a furniture outlet. Forty-five minutes after the beginning of this journey, it turns into the Hamilton Place shopping mall, where Smith steps off and transfers to the Number 6, which — after another 30 minutes — deposits her a half-hour’s walk from Amazon. Unless it is a Sunday. On Sundays, she steps off the Number 4 at Shallowford Road and