Huffington Magazine Issue 16 | Page 70

HUFFINGTON 09.30.12 THE DISRUPTOR a collection of porcelain river crabs, nodding to a public feast he hosted at his Shanghai studio in honor of its imminent destruction. In Chinese, river crab also means harmony, which is a word the government uses as a euphemism for censorship. “It’s very hard to even say if this was a complete way to express myself because I was detained and all my work was under some kind of censorship,” Ai says. “So if I have to talk about it, the only thing I can say is I made my best effort.” Thinking wishfully, Ai had planned to spend four-to-six weeks in the U.S. around the Hirshhorn opening, and accepted a position as a visiting professor at the Berlin University of the Arts, he told the New York Times. If he could get his passport back, Ai said he’d go anywhere. Even North Korea (“I’m crazy to see [it],” he says). But when it comes to the long haul, Ai would always choose China. “I like to live in China because I have so many emotions [tied to it],” he says. “It’s something beyond my understanding because I happen to be Chinese.” Dream city? “I hate every city in China,” Ai responds with a weak laugh. “The problem is you see so much injustice. And the people, they don’t care [to change it].” For all his grim tidings, Ai gives off a childish air, a quality that’s easy to imagine when you see the animated zombie stickers his three-year-old son, from an extramarital relationship, planted on the back of his iPhone. (“You know the game, ‘Plants and Zombies,’” he explains. “My son he doesn’t like zombies, so he just keeps the plants and gives the zombies to me.”) Like a child, he’s obstinate, quizzical, and sometimes, finds reality is best ignored. Like an artist, he ignores it by musing on strange metaphors: China’s government as a tree long gone, and himself the dinosaur that bit it dead. “I hope my son’s vocabulary doesn’t include words like political or activist — ѡ