B"H
First Chapter: Distinction of Essence
The loneliness of aging can be s ublimated only where the
involved party is motivated to develop his or her talents and
employ his or her strength, and it bears repetition that this phase
of life I have co me to call creative productivity. Motivation is
achieved by messaging the brain unti l I collate thoughts in me mory
capsules; earnest activation, suggestive expressions, " if I want my
thoughts to be known I'll have to record the m in digital form. The
habit of sitting hours upon end at a keyboard saying things , part y
to which I may be the o nly recipient. This is accomplished when
the difficult to initiate task is repeated, say on a scheduled basis.
Like wanting to re member so meone name, concentrate so that yo u
hear it properly and repeat it until is various scenarios, spiced a
little with details until each me mory cell establishes a fir m
presence on a neural pathway, and can thus be swiftly recalled.
How does one hear the voices of his me mory as though
experiencing the events to which associated? The human brain is
constructed such that we process data important to our survival.
There are auditory, optical, tactile, smell and taste sensations and
there are ethereal currents of brain waves communicated directly
to a sixth conte mplative sense.
We're faced with extre me conditions and the experien ce o f
pleasure is essential because it makes life endurable. My last
literary endeavor was a flashback to fatherhood, my arrival to that
conjecture of life; how I handled circumstances beyond my
control. There's the story of the Owl whose chicks couldn't fly to
the other side of a lake on their own, against the raging storm. She
took the eldest of three offspring and flying above the middle o f
the lake asks him what will he do when he 'll get older, "what will
the future bring?" The first two of her chicks answered, "I'll do
the same for you, " and she let them fall to their death. The last o f
the three birds tried to picture a genuine future when he would do
this for his children, and of course, it was a perspective of the
future that preserved his life . The wise youthful mother owl flew
her baby to a safe haven.
Then too, and ever since I can re member, I acted out so many
scripts of trying to attract attention, enacting see mingly
convincing dra mas that would garner the love of those unable to
express a conviction of my importance to them. Going to Israe l
was an obligatory pilgrimage to many Jewish people in the
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