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produced mechanical sounds are heard . For instance, the motors
of refrigeration systems in nearby stores, the humdrum of the
distant highway, or other voices being the yaps and barks o f
dogs, but nary a chirp fro m a bird , or the buzz of a bee .
Noticeably absent from the night sky is the flut tering o f
creatures whom e mbellish the silence.
The darkness exaggerates the deep hum of low pitc h
vibrations as motors of all sorts seem to impinge upon one's
hearing; deep tones naturally associated with danger or threat o f
disdain. In so me places, there 's a constant buzz of motor
vehicles trespassing human privacy with a noisy pestilence.
One's inner tranquility is crushed by non -stop persistence o f
such noises, unavoidable even during their absence; there are
subliminal levels of noise that disrupt tran quil deliberation o f
the mind. I would find no path to escape a desperate loneliness
that haunts my elderly weakness to deal with an elusive pride;
fear of rejection (or assault) keeps one chained to an inso mnia,
being held over an abyss of self -emolliating untreatable
dysfunction.
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Voices reverberating upon the darkness echo between the
thoughts in my mind and are heard in every ra mification of night
sounds. Things about which people have a guilty conscience
cannot escape the resonance ; the best one can do is engage his
belief; do teshuva, charitable deeds, and pray. Yehudi, the
nourishment of the outgrowth, from the root in Halacha ca n
spare the healthy person from committing an aveira, and
avaryohn from din of gehenna, in both this world and the next.
I've had a propensity to mental illness fro m my birth; the
characteristics of the disease were typical to the known abuses
that depict ethical degradation of the human species. There is so
much schizophrenia going around to day that normal people
need to learn how to live with it : Musar!
The unfortunate aspect of paranoiac delusion is that it has
been the subject of many movie scripts in modern cine ma and
literature to the extent a psychotic individual can no longer be
certain that he is delusiona l. The Establishment 's techniques of
Authoritative Control are more dreadful than either the scenes
depicted in horror scripts, or the wild misconceptions of the
mentally ill. Abuse, dereliction of duty, treachery are e mploye d
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