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For the meantime, I had set my remnants of material life to
rest; including electronic devices that I most treasured, and a
spat of wardrobe that amounted to all the earthly possessions
that I still owned. I leaned the m against the barrier of a lifeless
wall of a structure seemingly abandoned of purpose. When I had
given up learning anything of worth from the conversation I had
overheard, I returned to the alley of deathliness and found it had
come alive. There were articles of laundered clothing being
hanged out to dry, and I sensed a vibrancy of souls present but
nobody came into view. I went to a nearby doorway , sat at the
footstep; wondering to where all my possessions had
disappeared. So mewhere over the crest of a rainbow, I looked
upon the mountain range upon which electric bulbs lit up the
darkness of night. I continued to stare into the shadows as the
bulbs returned to darkness and the mountain res umed their
nightly demeanor as I lay on the bare ground and sleep.
I realized the only thing I need ever learn. Physica l
disposition is harmonious as a unified substance that can elicit
the appearance of a molecular being. It goes forth fro m the
visible to unseen and may never become anything but void o f
being, since its purpose is emptiness. If I look back upon it fro m
a distant future, I see it as neither the former structure tha t
entered my realm of perception, nor the latter. The point of this
containment is the imaginary line drawn along the main axis and
tangents striking forth from one end along the spinal column o f
energy as it pules in wave like formation; from the vestige we
have for the tailbone, up through the pineal organ. It travels
amongst the many forces influenced by gravitational pull as
perpetual vibration until reaching the North Polaris radiatio n
center, and thereafter along the axis of the sun to a place in the
universe that may be so mething or nothing. One aware of the
direction of the Pineal vibes is neither a rolling stone nor
without a home.
Present Personality Preference
My attitude to old age is s imply stated: I prefer to app ly
restraints to my conduct (it's anyway a good idea to live with
few expectation and much less frustration) than to be helped b y
those who'd be forced into a situation wherein they'd help me.
After all, they have their own lives to look after, and the life
they lead is a dimension of thee. The ancient philosophy of Asia
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