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B"H How to keep alive mo m's me mory? Sib ling Communicative techniques and syste ms. Even if only the individual is expressed, its value to the imagined me will become priceless when I shall no longer be ! The soul is an entity upon itself, a being, which there is no way to fathom. It is too easy to get confused and start relating to the departed soul as a force tha t can influence corporal circumstances. Holy means unfatho mable and the days of grieving imbue the individuals with acceptance of the state of holiness to which the departed has attained . Jewish Tradition calls this the Next World, World to come, etc. While we're on the subject, today's version of familia l interconnectivity is virtual messaging taking place in cyberspace. It's unfortunately true that certain personalities are drawn to the excite ment from clicks, rings, flashes and other stimuli they receive fro m PC, and as such never tend to or cultivate their communicative skills. "I'm in a hurry, I'm not listening to you, don't have time, sorry;" the reduction of our mentality to phrases that have replaced patient attentiveness to the expression of those in our realm of soul essence. If you have to sit at the computer, write a story, preserve your ability to contemplate and form thoughts into literary sojourns that strengthen your opinion of your self-worth. If you move forward into creative productivity you can leave an artwork, "my grandparent made this for me fifty years ago." However, within the context of this literary journey the issue of mourning arises each morning that I awaken to the reality of the mo ment. As I mentioned real time, in the month of May 2016 my mother lay on her deathbed, days gong without eating and the brief word she utters to ask, "When will her body be returned." The Alzheimer's fro m which she suffers had stripp ed her of long-term me mory, short-term me mory, social graces, and now physiological functional abilities; she's been dead to the world for a long time. According to the Halacha, I will be required to mourn her passing by saying kaddish prayers at the daily services mentioned above, but also in the afternoon and evening. Furthermore, I will be forbidden to participate (during the mourning period) in a daily learning session that I have maintained (Daf Yomi) for several years with never missing even once. I created my own image of myself, whether to neglect my responsibility on both accounts. It seems to me, that we must reconcile ourselves to morality, pursue reconciliation with death, live with it. A question , "how 180