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B"H Chapter: Shouldering No Responsibility Think before you do, and be sure it's true. Presently under investigation is the issue whether I should feel obligated to fulfi l l the mitzvah of Tefilin, or whether if the adherence to ritual and tradition can be supplanted with an intellectual pursuit. Under introspective lenses, I herein contemplate w hat it feels like to become religious, having growing up as a renegade against cultural co mpulsion: Governmental authority, religious authority, the entrepreneurial authority, and family authority . Let me ask thusly, if our prayer obligations can be fulfilled on the level of rabbinic decree, can one's own choice of words, trained to One Almighty accomplish the Torah obligation ? What is the reason that both are correct? We have so little reason to feel good that when it's proper and fulfilling, and everything associated with the opportunity to express love is such a happy opportunity , it should be considered to one's merit that he or she accusto m themselves to thus behaving. Is it obligatory participate in prayer, to join a congregation for prayer services, to yield to a superior force obliging us to put on tefilin, daily at an early ho ur of the morning in order to be considered an observant Jewish man , to be accepted amongst the me mbers of the congregation of Israel! Would anybody refusing to accept that standard be guilty for not doing so, and even though so many others may act similar ly, is that an excuse for such behavior as pertains to me? Question number two is whether by adhering to the cultural stricture there is a variable that changes the internal expanse within my soul essence. Were that I'll experience the influx of spiritual love, or the physiology of my brain more adapt to shluff (drag) through my days of existence as I meander across the desert of loneliness . Could should would mobilize the investment of energy? I, for one, have experienced both viewpoints first hand and am making this text in real time as I heighten my concentration to a vector in timeless energy that contains the spirit within, as eternal light. While we're on the subject, this fourth birthday of my twin grandchildren and loyal companions. I took up the responsibility of cleaning their porch (dirty details spared) and created a shelter from the pigeons takin up residence thereupon. Accepted the offer to lunch with my other fa mily of grandchildren, and have freshened up after a haircut. The deep thought myths portray a 169