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B"H I'd rather not dwe ll on that point, but to address the state of the individual when he retires to rest po ndering the worrisome thoughts he or she have heard reporte d. Or, for exa mple, how does the individual treat the thought patterns bouncing back and fort h in his or her brain while getting dressed, making their breakfast or lunch, setting out to arrive at the destination where their daily activities are scheduled to take place. For instance, an old man who lives alone, when out of the middle of nowhere, the phone line goes dead and there's no connection to the WEB. Days go by and the person remains detached form contact with the world beyond the cha mbers of one's daily patterns of existence. What, me worry? This old man, with a nick knack wonder when his phone line will be reconnected, and what the people trying to call will think . Will those to who m I reply with emails despise me for not answering; maybe draw the false conclusion that I'm dead and gone. I'm in so many places , doing many different things at once that I forge t what I'm talking about and that's especially true of discourse that has no meaning ful purpose. My me mory seems to have weakened so I've had to develop a routine; meticulously connote the things I need to on scraps of paper ; which if not discarded may be unnecessarily repeated. I must employ as a syste m, symbols of occurrence; tape notices to my co mputer monitor, to the refrigerator, doorpost, simple notations so that the me mory channels are readily initiated. A process of reconsidering every possibility o f where I might have misplaced something and want to recall where I put it. It could be here, but isn't - there, but also not. Never a leaf unturned, until I recall the last place I might have set it to rest. Prior to departure fro m my secure dwelling conc octing lists such that I not return have failed to do something because I forgot about it. I prepare the mentative list of communicative tasks that I'll endeavor to share with someone, a particular message that I want not to forget to tell the m. I wouldn't be surprised if that's what turns the elderly into nudniks; calling their children up every minute of the day or night any time something co mes to mind. Complaining that they're neglected because they can't even reme mber if they talked to the individual i n question. Fiscal turmoil results in trauma, sorting out threats that prevail if I forget to pay a bill on time , charged fees for lack of adherence to banking cautionary procedure , or forgetting userna me and code 150