ALWAYS
[march 2020]
Kaitlan Bui
Lanterns, Hope McGovern '19
a year ago was long ago:
so many things in between,
so many reasons for sadness,
so many things that i’ve seen.
a year ago was long ago—
i longed to be fully known,
“like, love, perfect, respect me,”
can I call you my home?
yet broken friendships scarred me,
romance a short-lived hope,
each day an endless battle,
tears my only way to cope.
a year ago was long ago,
one year too much for me—
lost faith in the Impossible,
feet sinking in the sea.
then somewhere in the darkness
(i don’t know when; i don’t know how)
He said, “come, you of little faith,”
“come here and come right now.”
i didn’t go, i didn’t hear,
too weak and too afraid,
a thirsty woman at a well
who believed she couldn’t be saved.
but in my wretched unbelief
He wrapped me in His grace,
showed me His nail-pierced body,
my impurities erased.
even darkness is not dark to You,
and the night is bright as day;
there is brokenness and yet such joy
only because You say
a year is but a mist to You;
You love eternally.
there are no pre-conditions and
there is no in-between.
i’m fully known and fully loved:
no matter where i roam,
i of such feeble, flimsy faith
can find in You my Home.
Luke 8:17
Matthew 14:30
John 6:44
Matthew 14:28-33
Matthew 11:28
John 4
John 20:27
Isaiah 43:25
Psalm 139:12
James 4:14
Jeremiah 31:3
Psalm 139
1 Corinthians 5:8
32 Fall 2020
Kaitlan Bui is a sophomore at Brown studying Emglish.