We submerge
Back into the music
And the drinking
And the numbing
Ways of life.
But I know,
Later will never come.
I’m waiting,
Asking,
dancing.
Indulging her
So she’ll
Indulge me.
I try to get lost
in the crowd
But he won't let me.
Gingerly,
A blue pill falls
Into her drink.
Instead of blending
With the people around
Me, I get lost
Inside of myself.
This time,
When I grab her waist
She barely notices.
When I look into
Her eyes, they’re open
But can’t see.
“Wanna get out of here?”
I try and answer
But a murmur
Escapes my lips.
He guides me
Out of the club.
And I take her home.