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Lovely Alfie is by my ankles now, his soft, warm head resting against my calf. I bend down, groaning slightly from the unrelenting pain in my joints, and cuddle him close to my chest. I can feel his heart beating, and it causes me to forget how chilly the room is. Alfie makes me feel warm, comforted… loved. I place him onto my lap and pull one end of the pink blanket over his body, tucking him into a little bed. ‘Are you tired, darling?’ I whisper, dislodging a twig from his ear. His eyes swirl upwards to meet mine, and he begins to purr. I lean my head back into the sofa, and stroke him, over and over again, all the way from his forehead to the tip of his tail. The rhythm of our breathing is identical, slow and steady. We both doze off. I am awoken by the grandfather clock chiming 8pm, time for my tablets. There are nine different kinds for my various ailments. I don’t know what each one does, I always relied on George to help me. Pippa has arranged them into a pill organiser, so it’s easier for me - now, I must simply take everything from the ‘Tuesday’ slot. I give Alfie a kiss on his rosy nose, sorry to disturb him. He stirs from his sleep and stands up on my lap, stretching out his body and politely jumping onto the carpet so I can stand. I open the slot and swallow the pills down with a glass of tepid water. I stare blankly at the wallpaper for a while, the floral pattern seeming to swim back and forth. Standing is too much for me these days. I wearily press play on the CD player that Sarah bought me for Christmas. A week after George’s death, I asked her to order the Grease CD for me, from a thing on the world wide web called Amazon. I listen to it two or three times every day. ‘Come and sing with me, darling,’ I call out. Alfie dutifully pokes his head round the corner and I scoop him up, sinking back onto the sofa. This time, I wrap the blanket round both of us, just me and my love, in a cocoon of safety. Hopelessly Devoted begins to play. ‘Sing with me, George.’ 40 Years Experience Flackwell Heath/ Loudwater Age Concern Day Centre. The Centre is open Monday to Thursday 9.30am to 3.30pm, tea, coffee and a freshly cooked lunch are provided. If you think you, or one of your friends or family, would like to attend, simply phone the Manager for more information on 01628 526113 Jacqui Ricketts, Chairman       email: [email protected] | www.hiyabucks.com  53