HIMPower Magazine January/February 2019 | Page 7

What if I miss those opportunities to give my heart, my money, my time because I have already allocated most of it to my own interests and there’s just not much left for Jesus? T he word “obedience” feels weighty and uncomfortable. It reminds me of the wooden spoon that my mother would use on me when I quarreled with my older sister. Obedience doesn’t have a light pleasant ring to it. Not like love, joy and peace, which are so warm, soft and easy to wrap oneself into. Instead, Obedience is close friends with Humility, and perhaps his dearest companion is Self-sacrifice. Sub- mission costs us something. And often, that “something”, is exactly what we do not feel like giving away. Years must have passed since I listened to a memorable message about the dangers of life in one’s 30s. A man was relaying a great pitfall of this age- to waste it chasing after those things that don’t have eternal significance. Although I cannot remember who was speaking or even recall the remainder of his message, I still vividly recollect the impact of that poignant statement. I was flooded with a distaste in my heart for a wasted decade. A new found uneasiness gripped me as I pictured throwing out my 30s on shallow and tempo- rary desires. And still today, I cringe at the thought of being too busy pursuing my own priorities, that I disobey God’s voice as he calls me into deeper service to him. What if I miss those opportunities to give my heart, my money, my time because I have already allocated most of it to my own interests and there’s just not much left for Jesus? However, in truth, wasted lives don’t come in 10 year increments. They come in daily disobedience. Every morning, I have a choice to make; will I give my time, my heart, my money to what God calls me to, or is my schedule already set, budget already made and heart already invested elsewhere? If I want to spend the next year honoring God, then it will mean that I have to spend the next day open to his calling. I must be willing to lay down my own agenda, hopes, and even dreams for what he is asking of me next. Because obedience can be painful, climbing this steep and narrow path is done with far more sure footedness, when the decision to follow has already been made in advance. The winding trail of surrender comes with ever so many forks in the road. Consequently, it is to our advantage if we www.himpowermagazine.com  7